16.2.17

The heartbreak.

I cannot believe how blessed I am. I am not sure why I got picked to be so blessed, but I do not want to question it and I just want to be grateful. 

I just got my heart broken for the first time. It's been a month since he broke up with me. 

Let me tell you a little bit about him. He is tall, handsome, green eyes, and a perfect smile. He is kind, humble, smart, independent, respectful, goal oriented, hardworking, and he gives himself to people. This man is the kind of person that goes all the way or does not goes at all. He gave me some of the happiest and some of the saddest moments in my life. 

We were together for 1 year, 7 months, and 14 days. Probable the happiest time of my life. Our dates ranged from being lazy and staying home to watch movies to flying a plane together. I think that shows how amazing we were together. I was such an easy relationship. It was easy to be around him, easy to be myself, easy to be vulnerable and give him all I've got. 

Then, I decided to follow a dream. An opportunity came my way and I took it. I moved 2,659 miles away from him. I moved feeling very confident that distance was not going to affect the amazing relationship we had. I was wrong. From day one the differences started. We began to argue, which we never did before. I would go to sleep crying quite often. I would feel mad at him and I would expect actions from him that I shouldn't have. I tried t change him and I will always regret that. There was nothing to change, but I was blinded by the negatives and I lost focus of the positives. So much, that I guess I pushed him away. I hurt him and that is something I cannot forgive myself for. It was a mutual series of mistakes. We just could not process the distance and each other's actions well enough. We misinterpreted each other and we missed the point. 

I have no regrets. There is nothing I can do now, but being grateful because I was blessed with a love story that I think only a few people get to experience in a lifetime. I cannot help to smile when I think about him because that is what he is, happiness to me. 

Last night, we spent hours and hours laughing and reminiscing about our time together. We laughed, we cried, we talked, and we expressed everything that we had to in order to move on. It was probably too soon, but we talked about future relationships and we wished each other luck finding "our special person". Even though I do not want to ever picture or see him with anyone else, I love him so much that I really hope he finds what he looks for in a woman and that she corresponds and values the amazing human being he is. 

After talking to him last night, I feel like I finally got some closure. I know it is going to be a pain in the butt, but I am ready to move on and keep building an amazing future for myself.

Today I feel positive and hopeful. Today I am grateful for my life and the amazing experiences I have had and I am ready for many more.

Bring it on life, 

And Mr. Love of my life... you will always hold a very special place in my heart and you will not be charged any rent haha 

Always in love, 
Fabi

18.1.14

Make it count.


Papers, work, school, homework, stress, sadness, monotony, routine, laziness.....
I can't believe I let those things take over my life sometimes. I had forgotten about my blog, I had forgotten about how great it feels to share thoughts with strangers that might be interested in the same topics.... 

This past year I grew a lot as a person and there are a lot of things I want to share. 

I thought I knew what my purpose in life was, and now I realize that I have never had a clue. I still do not know what I am in this life for, but I know some great things I have done and what to do to make my time here worth living. I have heard thousands of people say 'live the moment' and it had never made so much sense until now. I think it was not making much sense because I was overthinking it and it is not suppose to be analyzed, just live and enjoy... there is not much to think about it because sometimes our mind can be tricky and can distract us from doing a lot. 

Here are somethings I do to make my time worth and more joyful.





Don't forget your inner kid. Let everything amaze you and don't ever let monotony be part of your daily life.
Remember how anything with bright colors would excite you when you were a kid? Do you remember your favorite toy, candy, or game? 














Give it a try again and let it be as            fun as it used to be.
Do not look for expensive or technology to entertain yourself, just admire a sunrise and let your mind get lost in it's beauty.....


If the sunrise was not enough, then admire the sunset as well. Find a quiet place, close your eyes, mute all the world's noise, and listen to your inner voice. We spend a lot of time listening to other's needs and complains, but sometimes we forget the most important person; ourself.








Do not be afraid of the unknown. Go on an adventure to some place you have never been to, maybe somewhere you have always wanted to go, but you keep postponing it. 


















Make time for it now because tomorrow might be too late. 





Do not try to understand life. Sometimes it is very complicated. Sometimes bad things happen and we wish that they didn't and we powerless, we cannot change the past, but we are powerful enough to make a difference and determine how we want to live our future. 



Make each day count!
-F


P.S. I took all of this pictures in Orange County. Come visit, it is beautiful! Where are you from? What do you do to make your time alive worth? 

8.8.12

Great motto for everyday :)


"Dum loquimur, fugerit invida
Aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero"

Which translates as:
While we're talking, envious time is fleeing: pluck the day, put no trust in the future.

Well said Quintus Horatius Flaccus (65 BC – 8 BC) 



-F

30.6.12

friendly reminder :)

Make sure every action and decision you make it's 
to make you happy 
and not to please people around you.

-F

Enjoy, don't expect.

"when you learn to accept instead of expect, you'll have fewer disappointments" -Fisher
Delete the "what if" of you vocabulary
and make more use of the "is".
Because it is what it is.
Expectations get us no where but a fake reality of what we wish. 
Start enjoying what is around you today 
instead of expecting what might be tomorrow.
You can't change what already happened,
but you can determine what will happen.
Don't fool yourself. 
Expectation will bring disappointment.
Enjoying will bring joy (just like the word suggests)

-F

20.6.12

And all of a sudden it was gone.

I woke up. Everything seemed change. Was I still the same? Am i still the person i used to be? Something was missing. I was not sure what. Days passed and i felt no motivation. I was not sure how it happened, but there was a big chunk of me lost somewhere in space. It was hard for me to get it and i didn't wanted to lose it so soon, so easily. I need it for my everyday life. How am i supposed to have the sparkle in my eyes without it. Some people don't care about it, but for me it was sacred. It was that little push i needed to take everyday decisions. It was what abated my fears. My FAITH was gone. The intellect is slowly taking over me. Religion vs. Science. "The truth" against the facts. Innocence was being replaced by smartness. What used to have answers is now questions that leave to more questions and trap me in a vicious circle. 
Today I have decided to start a journey to get it back. 
Cross ur fingers for me!